God, I swear there's something wrong with me. The second someone else starts to like something, I dont feel special anymore, I want to stop liking it. Like, in all honesty, I dont enjoy other fan's company. I dont want to talk to a bunch of kids who go "Ohemgee, I like, LOVE Wicked. Idina is teh sheetz. I dont want to see the movie 'Enchanted', but I'm going just cuz IDINA omgzorz is in it! ZOMGER, Kristen Chenoweth! Lets pretend we cared about the shows she was in before Wicked!"

I'd much rather hang around people who have a mild interest or no interest at all in what I love. Sounds wierd, neh?

Dont get me wrong. Dizzy, I dont mind that you're getting into Avenue Q or Spelling Bee. I love that you're interested in those shows. It's because they reminded me of you, I guess. Though I will kill you if you introduce it to your Lehman friends and they walk down the street singing "If You Were Gay".

Am I making any sense?

Ok, let me try and put this into sense-making words.

I hate people who think they're the biggest fans in the world. I hate those people that mistake Eden Espinosa for Idina Menzel. I hate those fuckers who wait outside the stage door with flowers for Eden, and wind up giving them to Jenna Leigh Green. It happened, I was there. Jenna was in Sabrina the Teenage Witch, and I loved her ever since I knew what acting was. I was going to get her autograph, and these people scream "Eden! Eden!" Shower her with gifts, jump on her, take pictures, and then she goes "Uh... I'm not... Eden."

They go: "Oh, ok." And act like she's no longer relevant.

Not only do I hate the wanna-be fans, I hate the rabid fans. Those fat chicks who have nothing better to do than make accounts on sites like "DaNxtElphie" or "DefyGravty" (By the way, I'm getting a new account with a better name. 'Cause Elphiechan is the ultimate Wapanese/Poser name.). Those kids who know everything and anything, plus more. The people who make scrapbooks to give to Megan Hilty because it's her final performance.

Dont get me wrong, I know I'm pretty obsessed myself, but these kids are like... geez! They actually make presents for these actors and give them to them. And they send them flowers, and cards, and all personal shit like they know them! I'm sorry, but thats just pathetic. Get a little bit more of a life, and stop saying how much you're like Elphaba (OMG, misunderstood!).

And then there are these types of people:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1EEpMLSfVG0

Alright, the link above is to a Wicked spoof. It has different songs than Wicked, but its the same premise. They used it for a witch's backstory on a soap opera. I, personaly, love the first number. I watch it every day because I can't dowload it ("Please tell me this can't be truuue, I know I can't live with someone like youu!"). I'm a Wicked fan, I still loved it.

But GOD! Read some of the comments! It gets me so pissed off. It's like "Ick, they shouldn't have made fun of Wicked" "Omg dis sux its just an xcuse to rip off of Wicked!" "Dey shudnt hav mad it cuz der r so many wickd fanz!"

It's like, get of your trojan horse, bitch! Calm down, its just a spoof. I mean, thank god Dizzy taught me to laugh at my fandoms, otherwise I'd be one of those idiots.

So, I guess the point of these little rambles is that I'd love to live in a world where Wicked, Rent, Spring Awakening, Kristen Chenoweth and etc. weren't so popular. I cant sit down and have a conversation with a rabid Wicked fan, I just cant. I dont want what I love to become an obsession for everyone else...

But if I hate all the fans, does this mean I hate myself? Ah, I'm so confuzzled.